Everybody dies, but not everybody lives.

I came across this video the other day and it really just made me think. I want to really live life to the fullest and I know thats just something you say but I somehow want to actually accomplish it. I want to make my dreams come true and I want to keep growing as a person. That is all. I just wanted to remember this video and have it somewhere that I can maybe come back to if I need it.

College round 2 week 3

I have officially started my second year of college. It is nice to be back in school and working towards something, although it is difficult to get back to the reality of studying all the time. My apartment is nice, nicer than Park Place for sure. One of my roommates, Trinity, has lived here for two years and has everything decorated really cutely, iit really makes it feel more like a home and less like just a place for sleeping. It is also really nice to be living with Mikala, we have a lot of fun together but unlike China we each have our own rooms so we don't get annoyed by each other. It's also very nice to be so close to Erik. Having family around but not too close is actually quite perfect. Makes it hard to think about leaving and going somewhere where there is no family around. Ashlynne really wants me to come to JMU in Virginia next year and that would be really fun but I also can't help feeling like it would be really lonely in a sense. I'm not sure what I'm going to do, I really don't want to live in Utah my whole life which means that eventually I will have to just be brave and take a leap of faith I just don't know when the right time will be. Anyway...I'm going to try and update this blog more frequently, maybe just try to do more of these short posts...idk. However, currently it is 4:20 am so I guess I should get to sleep. Goodnight.

-XOXO-

5th draft

This is the fifth time I have started a blog post, hopefully this time I will finish it.  I don't know what it is but its hard to sit down and write about my life. I guess because so much has happened within the last 8 months that I'm not even sure who I am anymore. We are driving to Utah tomorrow and I am excited but also scared to jump back into real life. I have been on pause for a year and now I have to press play and its exciting but nerve-wracking. I'm excited for college and living on my own again but also nervous for college and living on my own again haha. I'm just gonna do the best I can, I guess that's all I can do.